(kyLie)'s Blog

2003/04/29

Although we cannot see our Lord, We know that He is here; His promise is dependable: He always will be near. When trouble seeks to rob your very breath, When tragedy hits hard and steals your days, Recall that Christ endured the sting of death; He gives us hope, and merits all our praise.

*kyLie* posted @ 00:14

2003/04/28

its killing me... the pains... the tears... the =( it pierces... deep... it hurts... cries... when wil it ever go away...

*kyLie* posted @ 13:41

2003/04/27

its back.. its back again.. when will it ever go away.. just go away and never come back... why cant it juz leave.. i hate this feeling... is there a place where i can hide.. hide away from all the pains n tears... a place where no one will be given a chance to hurt me.. a place with no pain.. or at least just let me hide there temporary... will it be better? i am escaping again right.. trying to escape from this again right.. thats what all of them say.. m i really not facing it.. then why the tears.. why the struggles? i wan to leave.. take me away.. can anyone just take me away... just anyone, anyone... i need a good rest... i need a good night sleep.. just that.. am i asking too much... i need to rest... zzzzZzz

*kyLie* posted @ 23:57

2003/04/25

bday arh.. hmm... was wrkin frm 730am til 10pm.. haha.. wad a day arh.. still tired now.. hang over frm over wrkin.. haha.. hai hai.. kpt sighin recently.. no idea why.. anyway, gotten a bday cake frm doris.. came as a huge surprise.. hee.. nvr expected that.. kinda brighten my day.. ; ) was so sad abt turnin 21.. old le old le.. 21 yrs on earth.. yet nothing much is achieved yet.. wad a life.. aaiii.... hmm.. well.. loadsa lesson learnt along e way.. nvr once easy.. still struggling.. still coping.. n still learning.. yet i still choose to believe in e sunshine after the rain.. =) dun reali hve the patience to reali sit down n write a proper entry.. juz writin 4 e sake of writin.. hmm.. m i.. *shrugs* meetin frenz 2mr 4 dinner.. regrettin alittle.. no idea y.. not reali lookin 4ward 2 it... nvm.. guess i wil feel beta later.. i'm juz too tempermental..? emotional? .... mood swings...

*kyLie* posted @ 09:39

2003/04/23

saw another sad thing also... out of a hug then kana scold er xin... sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad........ anyway wish this toopid ger who scold mi er xin A Happy 21th Birthday on 23th April Kyle posted by Kajuaz 4/22/2003 11:36:40 PM saw dis somewhere.. hehe... =* thnk u, my 6 legged fren.. haha

*kyLie* posted @ 11:48

...continued KISSES ON MY BIRTHDAY (10.36 AM) huiwen\*0*/ : *smuackz* <--(*0*) ---- (11.19 AM) derrick : happy bird day woh...... (11.20 AM) derrick : *MUaKZ* --- (11:52 AM) Stoopiak aka kuPPoH : happy bird dae~ (11:57 AM) Stoopiak aka kuPPoH : *hugz* 21st some more~ (11:57 AM) Stoopiak aka kuPPoH : *muackz* happy bird dae~

*kyLie* posted @ 11:02

I WANT A KISS FROM EVERYONE ON MY BIRTHDAY!! [[ 12:21 ]] � LiqSky � happy birthday! [[ 12:25 ]] � LiqSky � i will always be here for u [[ 12:25 ]] � LiqSky � {kiss} one kiss for ur birthday ---- [[ 12:33 ]] � eXe_gAl � mUACKZ [[ 12:34 ]] � eXe_gAl � HAppY 21st bIrthDAy to f[a]erie *MUACK MUACK MUACKZ* [[ � 02 � 03 � ]] * eXe_gAl muackz f[a]erie ---- jielong gor (11:45 AM) : :)happy birthday xiaomei.... jielong gor (12:34 AM) : lol*kiss* ---- [[ 12:36 ]] � final^^ � *kiss* hee although i don't know u :P ---- Some1else (12:40 AM) : HAppy BirdDay KaiLi Some1else (12:43 AM) : eeer... kiss kiss ---- PlaneteeR (12:47 AM) : Happy Birthday! PlaneteeR (12:48 AM) : hahaha *muacks* ---- [[ 12:33 ]]Kajuaz kiss f[a]erie on the cheeks hard hard... smiles ok... enjoy urself... (1:35 PM)Kajuaz Kiss f[a]erie again with his fat lips .Tuck in Tite... sweet dreamzzzz ---- VoDooDo|| (12:19 AM) : HAPPY BIRD BIRD DAY VoDooDo|| (12:54 AM) : -=~Mauck~=- ---- joseph gor (1:06 AM) : happy birthday!! joseph gor (1:07 AM) : *MUACK* big one ---- jeff (1:08 AM) : *muackz* happy bday kaili~ ---- ^We|^� (1:07 PM) : *KISSES* ---- [[ 13:16 ]] � final^^ � *kiss* ---- [[ 13:17 ]] � Sasuke`- � muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx muackx ---- sarcophagus (1.23 AM) : hello birfday girl! sarcophagus (1.39 AM) : *kiss* ---- [[ 13:14 ]] � N1ghtSky � happy birthday... [[ � 01 � 49 � ]] * N1ghtSky give f[a]erie a big KISS [[ 13:49 ]] � N1ghtSky � *MuAcKsSs* ---- [[ 14:03 ]] � AtsuRo � muackx [[ 14:03 ]] � AtsuRo � muackx happybirthday [[ 14:04 ]] � AtsuRo � muackx happybirthday Muackx MuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMuackxMu [[ 14:06 ]] � AtsuRo � happy birthday [[ 14:06 ]] � AtsuRo � gong xi gong xi ---- [[ � 02 � 03 � ]] * ^__^t|aN peck f[a]erie on da cheek ---- [[ � 02 � 04 � ]] * Pisces- muack~ f[a]erie everywhere [[ 14:04 ]] � Pisces- � woot ----

*kyLie* posted @ 01:01

2003/04/20

Wishing on a dream that seems far off Hoping it will come today. Into the starlit night, Foolish dreamers turn their gaze, Waiting on a shooting star. But, what if that star is not to come? Will their dreams fade to nothing? When the horizon darkens most, We all need to believe there is hope. Is an angel watching closely over me? Can there be a guiding light I've yet to see? I know my heart should guide me, but, There's a hole within my soul. What will fill this emptiness inside of me? Am I to be satisfied without knowing? I wish, then, for a chance to see, Now all I need, Is my star to come... --myFAVEsong.. thnx 2 kajuaz... hehee... =)

*kyLie* posted @ 23:47

* * * * * the sky is full fo stars we are always loking for the brightest one but when u look at the sky u start to find more stars as u start to count nevertheless the brightest star is the satelite cuz its always up there and it brings me to get o knoe u * * * * * n irc pal send dis 2 me.. hmm.. tot its alittle lame.. but i like stars*.. heh.. quite nice arhx... =)

*kyLie* posted @ 15:58

2003/04/17

hmm.. met him for movie yesterday.. never tot much abt that initially, i was just passin my time anyway.. kinda shivered when i saw him outside e clinic last evenin.. used 2 get so frightened wheneva he appeared there.. juz weird.. yah.. guess most prob i wun b able 2 get over that ever.. or maybe i will.. juz not tt soon? hmm.. its juz weird.. yah.. e word is WEIRD.. mere sittin beside him feels weird.. n i'l juz get uncomfortable whenever he stand alittle closer... goodness.. whats wrong with me... juz hard 2 get over myself.. e bad moments juz keep flashin.. well, shouldnt b THAT negative.. i still got a fair share of nice sweet memories tt r here 2 stay.. right.. we used 2b so close. such good friends... somehow life's unpredictable huh.. yah.. somethin that i'd learnt along e way.. along my life.. we will never know what we will get till the end of the journey.. right... people come and leave.. who will be here to stay.. sometimes its just so sad to learn that somehow we are alone in our lives... nobody will stay 4eva.. nobody can b with us 4eva... always thought i m independent.. hmm.. somehow i am reali independent at times... n kinda proud of myself 4 that.. yet somebody actuali once commented that i m not... sigh.. what rubbish.. haha.. =P leavin in an hour's time.. bad mood today.. no idea why.. so impatient with patients today... so angry with the whole world.. urgh.. why... =( suddenly tot of kajuaz.. haha.. his dance.. tt seems like the oni thing tt can make me laugh these days.. maybe i shud juz keep my mouth shut.. at least i wont lose my cool right.. so DUN TOK 2 ME.. juz dunnn... hehe.. heather goin put her nice nice eye shadow 4 me.. haha.. =) hmm.. my mood swings gettin frm bad to worst.. *shrugs*

*kyLie* posted @ 12:16

2003/04/15

1)Starting time: 151am 2)Full name: > kyle ** Nickname: > hmmm.. Car-Li? 4)School: > Nope 5)e-mail: > smilekyle@starplace.com 6)star sign: > Taurus 7)zodic sign: > Dog 8)Siblings: 2 younger sis 1 younger bro 9)Gd friends??: Hmmm... u noe who u r lar.. heee 10)Ever go out late @ nite: Yea 11)Ever missed school because it was raining?: hmm.. wil miss sch even if no rain.. so wad u tink.. 12)how often u go out: quite i suppose 13)Kept a secret from everyone?: yesh.. everyone have their darkest secrets right? 14)Had an imaginary friend?: yup.. *serious* 15)religion: hvn really decided yet.. 16)wish 4 sis or bro: wanted an elder bro alot... 17)Had a crush on a teacher?: dun tink so.. cant rem any 19)Ever at anytime owned a 'New Kids on the Block' tape?: nope 20)Ever prank called someone: haha.. 21)Been on stage: yesh.. used 2 do chinese dance when i was in pri sch.. did drama too... 22)fav tings: STARs... i love stars... since young... 23)Colors: Blue 25)Online: yep 26)Countries: recently been hopin 2 go taipei.. mayb cuz my dream guy is there.. ; P 27)Like anyone: currently no specific one i guess... but loadsa crushes.. haha 28)Who have you known the longest of your friend: yan? 29)Who's the loudest: mum... she nags n screams n nags n screams.... 30)Who's the shyest: myself? haha.. 31)Who do you go to for advice: uncle. aunties... close frens.. my sayang... 32)Who do you get along with best: myself.. haha.. too individualistic i guess.. weell.. thats me anyway... ----------IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS HAVE YOU------------ 33)Cried: no 34)Been mean: yah.. was kinda harsh 2 my collegue today.. mayb 2 stressed up w wrk.. 35)been sarcastic: can i say.. ALWAYS? haha 38)Talked to someone you nv talk b4: everyday... cuz of my job mah... 40)Hugged someone: yesh 41)Fought with your parent(s): no 42)Wished upon a star: do that almost every night.. loadsa wishes.. heee 43)Laughed until you've cried: i did.. not cry lar.. juz tearin.. tt stupid xiaoqiang wan do e kajuaz dance.. haha 44)Played Truth or Dare: .....no..... 45)watched a sunrise/sunset: no 46)Went to the beach at night: nope 47)Read a book for fun: do that all the time 48)Ate a meal: duhhh.. of cuz... 49)Are you lonely?: hmm.. not much prob w tt 50)Are you happy?: trying hard 2 b happier n happier... 51)Are you talking to someone online?: yesh -------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------- What goes around, comes around� 52)God/Devil:> yesh... both 53)Love: yes 54)The Closest fren: Me, myself and I >> yah... 55)in curse: sometimes... 56)Heaven/hell: both 57)Superstitions?: some.. not alot oso.. 58)Full Name: ........ 59)Who named you?: dad 60)Backstreet Boys or NSync?: WESTLIFE? 61)When was the last time you go out?: jus now 62)When was the last time you were online: now 63)What is right next to you?: my hp.. hp is almost always by my side.. heee 64)What is your computer desk made of?: wood 65)What was the last thing that you ate: drank green tea.. cant rem wads e last i ate... 66)Where would you want to go on ur honeymoon?: hmmm.......... reali dno.... as long as i m w e one i love.. anywhere is fine... 67)Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? : someone whom i reali love... 68)How's the weather right now?: 2am at nite.. wad u tink... 69)What did you do last night?: sleep 70)Thing that you find attractive about the opposite sex?: dun understan qn eh.. but i wil notice a guy's height first follow by eyes... 71)How do YOU eat an Oreo?: dip in milk.. haha.. sedapp... 72)All time favorite tv show: not TV go-er 73)Dream car: really nvr tot of this b4.. 4wheels can run gd enuf le lah 74)What do you want to be when you grow up: can i b an interior desinger? 75)Favorite music?: loads... 76)Favorite days of the week?: huh.. no preference... 77)Favourite food?: loads.... chocs.. currently love fish.. fish slice soup... 78)If you could change your name, what would it be?: i love my name!! haha 79)Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: alot of them... 80)the most stupid thing you have ever done?: woahh.. dun wan speak abt e painful past.. =) 81)First Daughter's name?: natalie 82)do u keep pets: no 83)You like scary or funny movies better: comedy definately 84)On the phone or in person?: in person 85)Lust or Love?: > Love 86)wads ur hp no: > =) 87)sports dat u play: hahaa.. slpin can or not huh... 88)dislike sports: almost al.. hate runnin most,, 89)Who sent this survey to you?: no one 90)What do you think about this person? : NIL 91)What is your favorite song?: Lots 92)Do you want your friends to do this surevy: up 2 them lah.. 93)end time: 215am

*kyLie* posted @ 02:10

2003/04/14

suppose to meet alan 4 movie today.. actuali was tinkin abt watchin a midnight show on sat nite.. long time no go midnite show le.. den somemore alan was sayin he dun mind.. den gd lor.. someone to go with me mah... but couldnt get e tix... sneek preview of JOHHNY ENGLISH... hard 2 get tix 4 dis show siah... but he so weird... called me last min say he cant make it.. den i say nvm le mah.. den he called 2 explain... den at nite call again n explain again.. *sigh* stupid boy.. hehe... actually its so weird 2 actually tok 2 him again after so long.. somehow.. i missed the times when he wil juz make me smile.. yet.. i m really wonderin if we can be that gd frenz again.. life's so unpredictable.. tot i wil nvr eva dare 2 tok 2 him anymore.. but i actuali went 2 look 4 him.. tot i wil juz hate him 4eva n eva.. yet i start missin him.. i guess i forgiven him frm e very day i recieved e card sayin 'sorry'... anyways.. in e end met wensi.. went dinner.. shop ard.. n took another pic.. bit crazy over pix dis days.. haha.. heh... hmmm... stil tinkin.. considering which fone 2 sell.. i dun wan c tt v70 ard anymore.. dun reali wan keep anymore things that wil remind me of that guy.. he dun even deserve anyone 2 love him, cuz he dun even love himself at all... yet stil so stubborn.. anyway, juz prayin tt someday he wil c his own flaws too.. m i blind or wad... *shrugs* well, mayb tts wad they mean when they say love is blind? anyway.. yah.. guess i wil juz sell tt... yah... get a new fone nxt mth? heee... 6100.. haha.. been a bit weird recently... smilin one min.. upset e nxt... 21st bday blues?.. hmm.. maybe... i will b alrite yah... [[ 2214 ]] faerie: its awiz so comfortin.. 2hve u ard... [[ 2215 ]] faerie: (` � m reali not alone.. rite... �) [[ 22:15]] LiqSky: u r never alone [[ 22:15]] LiqSky: im always here, n i bet u'll find someone of your own one day [[ 2226]] faerie {hugz} [[ 22:27]] LiqSky :) hugs back thank you so much.. appreciated al these... reali.. i do... =*

*kyLie* posted @ 23:35