2003/06/30
Knew The Signs
Wasn't Right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you,
And now I feel like the fool
So confused, my hearts bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
[Chorus]
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be
Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy every day
I know I will be okay
But I was so confused, my hearts bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
[Chorus]
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside
And I hope that in time, you'll be out of my mind
I'll be over you
But now I'm so confused, my hearts bruised
Was I ever loved by you
*kyLie* posted @ 12:07
wad r u tryin 2 do... no more patience.. that is it i guess.. u dun deserve al these...
=..( dun hve 2 understan.. dun hve 2 noe.. u dun need 2 noe anythin... wads e pt anyway..
dont wan 2 hate anybody.. hatin someone is a burden.. terrible burden..
juz askin 4 a gd nite rest..
yah... simple as that...
*kyLie* posted @ 00:36
2003/06/28
sigh...
yawn...
z z Z z Z z z z...
sch startin soon.. hw hw hw...
*kyLie* posted @ 01:07
tm last day..
miss them?~
not really the place or the people..
its the job.. its how it helped me tide over that terrible painful period of time..
its the job itself... that kept me busy and kept me strong..
The way I see things, the way I see life, I see it as a struggle. And there's a great deal of reward I have gained coming to that understanding -- that existence is a struggle.
~ Harvey Keitel ~
Pooh looked at his two paws. He knew that one of them was the right, and he knew that when you had decided which one of them was the right, then the other was the left, but he never could remember where to begin...
lolz...
rofl...
whahah..
"Well," said Pooh, "what I like best -- " and then he had to stop and think. Because although Eating Honey was a very good thing to do, there was a moment just before you began to eat it which was better than when you were, but he didn't know what it was called.
*kyLie* posted @ 01:05
2003/06/24
kylie 00:02: by the way, just to let you know... i really enjoy talking to you..
KEN 00:02 : ME TOO
kekex.. =)
*kyLie* posted @ 00:09
2003/06/23
sch startin nxt wk.. hmm.. a mixture of feelings.. lookin 4ward 2 it definately.. been wantin 2 walk out of al these.. start somethin new.. somethin different... though i should have done that long long ago already... but.. its not easy.. in fact its been kinda tedious... still yearnin 2b stronger.. 2b a beta person.. its not easy yar...?
cara was sayin i shud juz 4get al e past.. n start afresh... yah.. that was on my bdae.. n its been 2mths.. yet i m still tryin n tryin.. things r gettin beta i guess.. n hmm.. time really heals..
gota leave e job soon.. wil miss e pple most.. spent some of the most miserable times there... dislike some of them there.. but somehow everyone's just tryin to cope better.. everyone's just trying 2b a better person... yet.. some dont know how to.. tactlessly offended some people.. guess.. i offended quite alot of them too.. but its juz wrk.. juz a learnin stage 4 me..
gg sch soon.. keke... quite excited... new place.. new environm.. a new headstart... =)
*kyLie* posted @ 23:40
2003/06/21
everythin wil b fine yar.. wanted 2 go.. but dun reali dare.. not tt close.. juz prayin tt she'l b fine.. tke care.. kpin u close in my prayers.. {Hugz}
*kyLie* posted @ 18:14
2003/06/15
found dis in aimei's diary.. nice arhz.. dis sooo sweet...
so comfortin tt kinda feelin rite.. 4 al my dearest frenz.. =*
*Crash and Burn*
When you feel alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know that you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take it anymore
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel you can't face the day
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breathe again
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
*kyLie* posted @ 00:16
2003/06/14
2dae father's day celebratn... hw i wished i can stay thru out... miss jiujiu.. didnt get 2 c him.. sometimes i reali wonder if i can ever pull thru without him... might still be struggling if he wasnt there 4 me when i came back.. burst in2 tears when i saw him at the airport that day, cant imagine what will happen if he din come to pick me up... he didnt scold.. no one ever did.. not even dad... n yah.. i'm really thankful 4 that... but, would it b better if they actually did scream? den i wun b so stubborn anymore?~ yah.. maybe they should.. someone should just lecture me.. they cant always let me have my way.. yah.. all out to get hurt... am i dumb or what... i actuali pushed myself all out there to die.. not regrettin.. been questionin myself.. kept askin if i wil ever regret.. doubt i will.. at least not yet.. its e trip there which actuali made me gave up.. which actuali made me realized that its was so frightenin 2 hve him beside me... dislike him.. but thankful 4 that route... thankful.. tt god made me strong enuf 2 go thru al e rains.. hlp me 2 4gv him too, will u...
well.. it wun rain 4eva.... =)
gota tink of somethin happier.. keke.. kent wil do.. heh.. n to tink that he actuali reads this blog.. kinda weird.. =P
*kyLie* posted @ 23:26
2003/06/13
feeling e pain... nope.. wun allow myself 2 cry over that anymore... NO more..
*kyLie* posted @ 14:22
2003/06/10
xin ren... at wrk place... somebody takin over... not too bad arh.. keke.. more pple...
dun reali feel like leavin le.. kinda miss e place... keke...
but gota go back sch arh... no choice... yah hve 2 right... =)
*kyLie* posted @ 16:19
2003/06/07
hao luan... you dian bu kai xin... ying gai mei shi de.. wo hui yong gan bah... dui ma?
mei shi de.. xiao shi er yi... mei shi de..
bu kai xin ye yao shui zhao.. kai xin ye shi yi tian...
*kyLie* posted @ 11:54
2003/06/06
poh choo stil upset.. sigh... tot of comfortin her.. but who m i 2 do that... tot i hd a whole load of probs, but compared 2 hers.. mine's nothin.. right.. shud i count myself lucky already..
life's aint tt bad.. =)
*kyLie* posted @ 12:27
2003/06/05
poh choo cried 2dae.. hmm.. was quite affected.. her husband was admitted in2 e hospital last wk.. quite serious eh.. nvr dare 2 ask her abt it oso.. but hrd she's kinda pressurize.. den toopit frog stil wan try 2 frame her.. tryin 2 get her in2 trouble.. urgghh.. i reali dun understan y there r awiz pple who r so mean out there.. y must u make others' life miserable.. juz cuz yours bad.. doesnt mean that u hve 2 hurt others 2... tai guo fen le... =|
*kyLie* posted @ 13:02
2003/06/04
went yoga ytd.. hmm.. bu zhi bu jue its endin soon.. time flies? yah.. hw come it seems so slow last yr.. hw come it seems like a torture den.. n yet it flies now... hw come it seems 2b much much more easier now... lighter load... much much lighter... after i came back.. shud i say things hd turn 4 e better? beginnin 2 gain back some weight... at least dun hve 2 rely on those pills 2 fal aslp.. dun hve 2 force myself 2 eat... 2 tink of it.. hw did i actuali get thru that whole period of time.. n 2 tink tt i was hopin 4 some changes.. somethin better... yah.. yuan lai life without him seems 2b much much beta...
like e way i push myself 2 every higher limit... tedious no doubt... n m stil pushin...
thnx 4 e lessons... -_-
*kyLie* posted @ 11:38