2003/05/29
jiejie bu kai xin.. dno wad i can do.. seriously there's nothin much i can do rite.. juz a temp staff here.. ~sigh.. somehow its rather sad to know that the real world is sucha cruel place.. y cant some pple juz hlp.. arent there anymore kind souls ard? y is everybody hurt in one way or the other... so wad if others r mean 2 u, tts not a reason 2b mean isn't.. its so unfair... when wil al diz idiots disappear...
*kyLie* posted @ 12:31
2003/05/28
[12:52] LIqSky - =)
[12:57] LIqSky - its great to have u online
[12:59] f[a]erie - =)
[01:00] LIqSky - =*
its
great 2 hve u ard too...
thnx alot..
sincerely.. thnx..
*kyLie* posted @ 01:16
2003/05/27
A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true
*kyLie* posted @ 17:11
2003/05/18
I've learned that care as you might, love as you might,
some people just don't care back. And it's not the end of the world.
After all, it's not the event that makes a person, is it?
It's what we do about what happens to us.
*kyLie* posted @ 15:14
2003/05/16
hao lei... zZzzz
sch startin soon.. keke...
reali hapie abt tt..
hope al wil turn out fine..
prayin.. prayin hard...
*kyLie* posted @ 23:16
bought a watch 2dae.. hehe.. was so excited.. not very special tho.. juz tink its nice.. now me huiwen n wensi got e same watch.. haha.. imagine one day we 3 go out 2gether den wear same watch somemore.. sure very funny de...
tmr cant get leave.. or rather dun tink i wan 2.. quite rush.. den not nice oso.. mrs yeo wil b not happie de rite.. no one 2 hlp her.. somehow tink she is a great manager.. she takes gd care of us.. so alot of times, non matter hw angry or hw tired.. wil stil gv her face de.. =)
hopefully can get nafa 2 delay e dateline.. den wun b rush den oso wun make mrs yeo 2 xin ku..
stil tryin 2 4gv him.. i wil b able 2 4gv him de rite.. not tt he is askin 4 4gvness.. juz that i nvr once accepted his sorries.. nvr once able 2 do it.. cuz i tink this is reali 2 painful.. much much more than anyone can take.. not askin 4 anyone 2 understan.. not even hopin 4 anyone 2 sympathise.. i juz wan 2 walk out of it badly... i wished i could smile.. reali smile when i c him in front of me... very long nvr smile at him le.. din know how 2 laugh when he's ard eversince we started goin out together... its oni e period when we were juz frenz when i was reali happy... i juz wan go back there... i hope u reali understan.. dun hate me.. i m juz tryin 2 recover asap.. 2 b 100% alrite when u r back... =)
*kyLie* posted @ 00:11
2003/05/14
1. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?- 615am.. early siah.. keke.. gota reach wrk place at 730am.. so no choice lar..
2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE FAMOUS PERSON, WHO
WOULD IT BE?- hmm... woahh.. alot alot eh.. our Mr Lee K Y.. wonder if i wil die of stress tokin 2 him.. intelligent guy rite.. hmm... superstars Micheal Jackson? hmm.. wonderin wads up in his mind..... PrinceWilliam? haha.. e handsome chap..
3. GOLD OR SILVER? -Diamond? Crystal? hmmm...
4. WHAT WAS THE LAST FILM YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA? haha.. dis one is weird.. watch Johnny English at Clementi.. erm.. old old cinema.. w e old old kinda ticket..
5. FAVOURITE TV SHOW? - nah.. not a TV go-er...
6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST? today arhz... erm.. no time eh.. juz kopi-si.. keke
7. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE LEFT IN A ROOM WITH? hmm.. my meng zhong qin ren? keke.. actuali prefer 2b alone... dun reali like others 2 step in2 my rm..
8. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE? no
9. WHAT INSPIRES YOU? - hmm.. shud i juz say WHO inspire me..? my uncle.. got loads of hlp frm him..
10. WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME? - urmm... erm...
11. BEACH, CITY, OR COUNTRY? beach!~ miss e sun sea n sand.. haha
12.SUMMER OR WINTER? - dun like winter...
14. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN? salted
15. FAVOURITE CAR? got 4 wheels can run can le.. haha
16. FAVOURITE SANDWICH FILLING? dun like bread
17. FAVOURITE TYPE OF MUSIC? - hmm... dreamy dreamy one...
18. WHAT CHARACTERISTIC DO YOU DESPISE? woah.. alot eh... hate pple who naggin.. hate pple who r fake.. haha.. i too attitude le lah
19. FAVOURITE FLOWER? - sunflower
20. IF YOU HAD A BIG WIN IN THE LOTTERY, HOW LONG
WOULD YOU WAIT TO SPEND pass 2 my mum.. RIGHT AWAY....
21. DO YOU WEAR PYJAMAS? as long as comfy can le lor..
22. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? black
23. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? 3
24. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO RETIRE? hmm... i m stil young rite...
25. CAN YOU JUGGLE? not interested
26. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK? hmm.. now like no diff eh.. anyday oso can..
27. RED OR WHITE WINE? Red
28. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? erm.. gatherin w family
29. DO YOU CARRY A DONOR CARD? nope.. duno go where le.. haha
30. SAY SOMETHING NICE ABOUT THE PERSON THAT SENT THIS
TO YOU. kajuaz... w feelers one.. haha can dance de... superb
31. WHO DO YOU LEAST EXPECT TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? nil
32. WHO IS THE PERSON YOU EXPECT TO SEND THIS BACK
FIRST? nil
33. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? - little prince..
34 FAVOURITE BOARD GAME? hmm.. juz learnt monopoly not long ago.. keke.. quite fun...
35. FAVOURITE MAGAZINE? cleo.. haha.. every mth oso must buy
36. FAVOURITE SMELLS? my perfume.. heh... stil got e ru yi you.. last time young grandma awiz use 2 rub my tummy one...
37. COMFORT FOOD? chocs... !!!! keke...
38.FAVOURITE SOUND? huh.. sound arh.... babies' laughters
39. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? hurt.. pain...
40. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE
UP IN THE MORNING? sigh.. another day...
41. FAVOURITE FAST FOOD PLACE? no fav fastfood de eh...
42. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? Natalie
43. FINISH THIS STATEMENT. "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY,
......." i will pass it 2 mum.. =)
44. DO YOU DRIVE FAST? nvr reali tot of drivin..
45. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? alot alot..
46. STORMS, COOL OR SCARY? storms arh.. if at hm w family members den i dun mind.. wun affect.. if alone.. of cuz scary lah..
47. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? dun hve lar.. tink i m those kinda rich man kid meh...
48. FAVOURITE DRINK? mocha.. heh
49. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD THE TIME, ....." huh.. 2 much time eh recently...
50. DO YOU EAT STEMS OF BROCCOLI? yah
51. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD
YOU CHOOSE? any colour la.. dun mind de.. as long as not green can le..
52. HOW MANY DIFFERENT CITIES HAVE YOU LIVED IN? live arh.. singapore oni lor...
*kyLie* posted @ 13:56
2003/05/12
you xiang qi le ta.. learning to forgive... yah.. really to forgive.. not a single bit of complain.. walking out of the pain.. been months.. i know its a mistake.. its his fault.. but... all along i just cant bring myself to forgive him... i dun hate him.. but i just dun wan 2 be reminded of him.. trying to take things easy.. and am trying very hard not to blame him... i know he reali loved me when he said so.. and i m reali thankful for that... all e joys he showered.. even tho' i wasnt happy at all.. but thanks to all that.. at least he tried.. and i tried...
just missed the days when we were friends.. yah.. those were the days that i missed most.. no obligations.. no commitment.. no pressure... no fear...
if you happen to read this, i hve no idea if u will be back with her.. but i guess she really love you.. and i'm sure she is not as bad as how you had descibed her to be... she's been waiting for so long.. and yet she didnt give you up at all.. i once made you promise 2 give the chance to me.. but.. i guess she needs that much more than me.. its not easy to see someone she love so deeply to be with someone else.. she deserves you more than anyone else does.. yah.. anyone.. including me...
still love you... still concern... but nothing much more than a friend.. a close friend.. *smiles*
*kyLie* posted @ 00:34
2003/05/09
I SING THE MIGHTY POWER OF GOD
There is not a plant or flower below
But makes Thy glories known:
And clouds arise, and tempest blow,
By order from Thy throne.
While all that borrows life from Thee
Is ever in Thy care.
And everywhere that man can be
Thou, God, are present there.
Isaac Watt (1674-1748)
Someone said, "If Christ is the centre of your life, you will not be fearful of the circumstances surrounding your life!"
*kyLie* posted @ 16:35
gotten letter frm NAFA..
mum disagrees...
as expected...
*sigh*
sobz...
slept thru e whole nite...
*kyLie* posted @ 11:57
2003/05/07
so angry with selwie today..
do al the wrong things..
den expect pple to clear e mess 4 her..
nvr eva blame herself..
its awiz others at fault.. not her...
everyone was waitin 4 her 2 leave...
goodness when's her last day..
urgh.. cant wait..
huiwen was so angry.. haha.. nvr c her face so black b4.. *sigh..
learnt alot of things at wrk.. n i guess its gd experience.. seen al sorts of pple here.. lessons not taught in e classrms..
glad tt i'm stil learn.. n glad tt i m stil copin well.. tho' gettin alil stressed up le.. but wel.. things r stil gg on fine...
hope it'l awiz b finee... hehe ;P
*kyLie* posted @ 12:19
2003/05/06
so disappointed... i mean, wad a great impression i once had of him.. liked his smile.. his laughter.. al seems so innocent... its still very charming... but why he like that.. ~disappointed.. tts e only thing i can say... the person i was expecting to know wasnt like this.. but why that change.. hmm mayb no change at all, afterall i stil dun noe him that well right.. should i say finali i saw the real him... tho stil hoping he's not like wad he seemed 2me yesterday.. he is a much much better person right.. nomally i wil get irritated by pple who kept callin or msgin.. but tink i m very very tolerant 2wards him le.. hmm.. e nice nice 1st impression did stay on til now i guess.. but he's gettin on my nerves... gettin more n more impatient w him.. urmm.. but well, i m stil toleratin.. reali hope he's not that kinda guy...
sometimes i reali do tink 2 much rite... quite ridiculous.. but alot of probs loadin up.. one after another.. m i reali a stronger person.. actuali reali tink i m coping well.. much much beta than before.. juz that some pains can nvr b erased.. some pple wil nvr b forgiven... life's so sad.. met so many selfish pple along the way... y cant they b more understandin.. sympathetic? *sigh*
i'm stil strivin 2b a better person... yah.. tryin hard.. real hard...
anyways anywayz... watch johnny english again.. with huiwen n wensi.. whaha.. e show seemed 2b much much more funny dis time round.. haha.. sometimes e pple u go with actuali does matters arh... was nearly dying when watch w alan e other time.. yah.. cuz he is alan mah.. weird borin alan.. oopps.. hope he wun get 2 c this.. =P
*kyLie* posted @ 23:38
2003/05/04
u nvr noe how much pain u had inflicted on everyone ard u... its invisible n irreversible.. i wun hate u.. i wun bother to.. but i wun b nice 2 u.. not eva.. not at al.. i m not 2 judge who is e good guys n who r e evil ones.. but at least i noe who is e one who reali use their heart 2 luv pple ard them and who r e ones in pretence.. u know who you are.. i dun even need to point out to u.. go on hurtin others... mum once said tt, non matter how bad others treat u, u r stil not given the right to treat others the same way... n i m sure u wil nvr understan dis.. but if u eva do.. well.. too bad... tts your own biz then... by e time u need help.. i m sorry.. doors wil b 4eva shut... 4 u...
*kyLie* posted @ 23:22
been home dis 2 days.. haha.. juz packed my room.. like my room so much.. haha.. so
comfy eh.. free arh, shud come my room see see look look... nice room to sleep in..*serious* keke... so lazy to go out... so unlike me hor... yesterday met roger.. after work.. he was saying he's too bored.. fed up with life.. feeling so empty and stuff... well well.. i guess its e age.. al of us wil more or less b loss... alot of soul searching.. alot of new plans.. yet not havin enough ability to work them out... so free yet so controlled.. hmmm... well.. he sees that as a huge prob.. i dont really think it is that bad.. just that its another chapter in life.. hmm.. chapter? yah.. juz another lesson to learn.. right... i m sure everyone been thru this before.. a stage in life when you feel really lost... more or less... yah... cheer up eh.. everything will be alright... sometimes really gota look at e bright side of life... like wad i awiz say bu kai xin ye shi yi tian, kai xin ye shi yi tian.. na dao bu ru kai kai xin xin de guo.. keke=)
*kyLie* posted @ 15:05
2003/05/02
this is never ending.. drag myself 2 wake up.. keep telling myself that everything will be alright.. then sleep when i need to... then wake up again the next day dragging myself to work.. sigh~ getting bored with the job.. time for something new i guess... haha.. been here for 1/2year? woahh.. kinda long eh.. broke record... urgh.. the headache is killing me.. spinning and spinning.. been days eh..see a doc.. or mayb i juz need some gd rest.. been tryin 2 slp yesterday noon.. phone kept ringing.. urgh.. headache le.. short temper le.. =(
*kyLie* posted @ 10:46
quarrelled with eug 2dae.. hmm.. i dun reali rem why.. but i was reali drawn back when he actuali raised his voice like that.. i hate it i hate it.. when people raise their voices at me.. sam was saying that things will be alright.. hmm.. i doubt it will be.. cuz i think its just too much 4 me to take... he's too harsh.. i cried.. hate it when i cry.. really hate it.. why must cry over sucha loser.. why must i get so affected by someone like this... i thought he's a nice person.. or rather he is someone who knows how to handle things well.. how to differentiate right and wrong... someone who can settle things calmly... yet i was wrong... so wrong abt him... hmmm.. love kills pple yah.. haha.. yah.. tts how i can conclude this.. love blinds pple... hmm.. i wont hate him.. got nothing much against him.. dun feel much for him anyway... just that i wun be able 2 treat it like nothing's ever happen.. and pretend 2 make up as if eveything's alright... and m reali thankful that sam actuali helped.. well.. not sure if he did anything.. but glad that he didnt take sides at all... and i really hope he didnt.. hmm.. juz hoping not to get another person involve.. its luanz enuff.. *shrugs* i dont even know whats going on..
m very attitude.. yah.. well that's me.. i hate others to push me around.. and seriously i dislike responsibilities.. unneccessary responsibilities i mean... and i reali hate people who keep calling and calling... i will look 4 you if i want to.. hmm.. like what i always say, i will only allow a few people to irritate me and these few people will have the special privileges... and its up to me to decide who they are.. if not when i m beginning to find you irritating, pls leave... i dont want things to turn ugly... n i dun wan to start ignoring people.. i dun wan to start a fight too.. and when i say i will do something.. i will.. i will means i will.. dont pester me to confirm and confirm again... i hate impatient pple... i needa change? well, maybe really i do need to change 4 e better.. but not cuz of this pls... i guess i do hve my fair share of positive traits too..
i wun be kaiLi if i lose any of these right...
*kyLie* posted @ 01:53