was lookin at her.. wonderin wads on her mind now... wonderin y can she ever b so selfish n tink oni of herself... she wans others 2 spare a tot 4 her... i mean, hw can u eva xpect things frm others when u r not even willing to give... he's unhappy, y not spare a tot 4 him n leave him alone, he's unhappy with u... n tt xplains y he dun wan 2 b with u... simple as that.. no more whys.. no more buts... tts e way it is in a relationshp... u kept thinkin tt u wan 2 call him... kept thinkin tt u miss him.. tt u wan c him... den wad abt him? if u really luv him, den u shud juz b quiet n let him go... let him do wad he wans, n let him be wad he wants to be... 爱一个人并不是占有.. if u really really do luv him.. u will spare every inch of your thought 4 him... seriously, i dun tink u reali luv him.. if u do, u wont even bear 2 hurt him that much... e more u call him, meet him... e more noise u make, u r juz hurting him more n more... mayb all these will nv get in2 u... or rather they nv did gett in2 your head, been talkin 2 u soo much soo much... i understan we r al stubborn 2 a certain extent... so i wont comment much.. i will juz wait 4 time 2 pass.. n hopefully u wil get beta.. sincerely... hoping u 2 get beta... 相信我,时间真的会冲淡一切.. 加油了..
*kyLie* posted @ 07:27
2005/11/17
Why bother..
Sometimes..
why bother to help a person who doesnt even wan to help herself...
Reason....is becoz u care...
BUt...if she doesnt wanna help herself...den i guess theres nth else i can do..
Wad i can say is..good luck....
At least i tried..
copied directly frm wensi's blog...
seriously... speaks my mind...
*kyLie* posted @ 00:58
2005/11/12
okie.. lets try this thing... read an old entry where i did a test abt myself.. juz evaluating it...
Day-dreamer.. i dream.. dream alot... big dreams.. aspirations... i wan to do so much things in my life.. i wanted so much 2 live my life 2 e fullest... i daydream.. if u eva notice me close enough (not as if anyone would..), i'm awiz staring into a blank space.. not lookin at anythin or anybody.. i'm juz staring blankly... with loadsa thoughts gushing thru my mind... well.. creative.. i dun think i am creative.. if i m i would b e top student in sch.. haha.. but i m imaginative.. yar.. imaginative's more appropriate... i had an imaginery friend... i talked 2 e mirrors til i was abt 5... i had a whole grp of Pooh friends... they used 2 walked ard... haha.. yah i awiz tot they do... i'm always thinking alot.. of e impossibles.. n unexpectables.. sometimes i think i actually live in e clouds.. You've created your own little world inside that head of yours.. dis sound weird but seriously i hv e most enchanting garden in my head.. in my heart... i'll imagine myself in that perfect place just b4 i slp everyday... n i'l nvr stop thinkin of more ways 2 decorate it... i think i created a world of my own in myself.. filled with all my thoughts and dreams and aspirations.. and passion... and i'm proudly pleased w it n all.. You'd rather be asleep than awake... yah i hate being aware.. being concious about wads gg on.. i'll rather b slping... n healing my own soul... the world i hv in my dreams' is much more beta than the REAL world i have in front of my eyes.. n i'll rather stay in my own utopia.. i'm aint no big fan of reality.. people find it hard to have long conversations with you as you mind often wanders.. i hv v short attention span.. mayb tt explains y i dun fare well in sch.. i dun like 2 listen to people talk as if e whole story nv ends.. my mind starts wondering when i start realising that e converstaion gg nowhere.. n so if u tink u r nagging, bragging, grumbling, boasting... dun worry.. u can juz continue.. i'm not paying attention anyway.. most likely love to write wonderful stories or draw and even sing, one thing here.. i dun sing.. i cant sing... god juz made me this way.. i cant regconise notes.. as in i cant hear them.. but i write alot.. or rather i used 2 write alot.. in chinese.. i guess i can write pretty well.. n i love to write... i actually believe i hv a talent for that.. so.. i'm aspiring to be a writer.. more than an interior designer.. though i stil hope i can be abit of both.. You're a bit of a puzzle, people love to wonder what is going in your mind.. this i'm not sure.. but one thing 4 sure.. i dun really wan to know much abt wad other gotta say abt me.. i hate 2 offend people n make enemies n all... but i pratically dun care abt whether u like me or not.. whether u tink i'm ugly n fat n short n bitchy... it doesnt matter 2 me at all... u hv ur own fair share of ugly sides.. or mayb even more in my eyes.. simply.. i jjust dun care..
*kyLie* posted @ 04:59
2005/11/11
feeling funny.. its late.. n i'm not rushin 4 sch wrk.. not at wrk.. not busy doin any thing.. isnt that funny... i'm simply doing nothing at all... doesnt feel like me... i spent e whole of today doin nothing... not even slping.. went jb with deardear... went 'dating' he said.. we did nothin constructive.. its been ages since we went out 2 a mall.. shop around for nothing.. i hve nothin that i needa buy.. though loadsa wants.. *hee* we went singing.. altho' i dun sing... n he laughed thru out e whole session.. cuz he said i was talkin to e mic.. seriously i dun tink its THAT bad.. i noe i cant sing la.. but... hmph... den we went movie.. watch dis stupid show.. CHICKEN LIL.. relatively short movie.. hmm lasted 4 abt an hour plus? story abt the small chic who saved the world.. yah.. he did.. typical cartoon 4 kids.. except 4 e part where we both think that the director was trying to mock at the Spice gers.. den we went 4 dinner... at e roadside stalls along the streets.. v nice food i must say (esp e bbq chicken.. yah.. we eat chicken aft we saw them in a movie.. ) as long as u dun talk abt the hygience la.. den we went Orchard rd.. 4 e xmas lights... juz made a loop ard there... hmm.. xmas lights' not amazing.. it used 2b amazing yrs back.. or mayb back then.. i was younger.. mayb its reali gettin bad... or maybe i'm reali gettin old... makes no sense.. either way e lights stil bad..
attachment's gettin closer... anxious... yet seriously alil afraid... hw m i gg wake up at 9am... *sigh*
wad a colourful entry... tryin v hard 2 make my 'nothin-2-do-day' more INTERESTING...
*kyLie* posted @ 02:56
2005/11/07
my stomach..
urgh... been 2days...
juz went 2 sch... got my attachm arranged le..
startin nxt monday at alexandra.. juz beside ikea.. so.. hmm..
whoeva free, pls gime a call.. all r welcome to.. meet me 4 e meatballs lunch at ikea... haha.. anxious... seriously.. i'm quite excited.. lookin 4ward 2 it..
*kyLie* posted @ 15:21
2005/11/04
sigh.. sigh...
back 2 wrk le...
hate assessm..
hate e whole sch term...
but seriously sch's more fun...
*kyLie* posted @ 18:06
2005/11/01
only 4 leona...
jiayou jiayou jiayou... its hard when we noe that we meet wad e lecturers wan.. its even harder when we noe that we haven meet our own target we had set 4 ourselves.. but its even harder when we noe our efforts din pay off... but there's this thing abt evonne that we all ought 2 leaarn.. she nv gv up.. even til e last min.. even tho' she noes that she cant finish, yet she stil hang on... i would have jus fall if i'm her.. but she din.. she failed.. but she kept doing... i once hrd her saying that... we have to try.. even if we cant.. we have to try... if not we definately fail.. she told suzanne that.. heehe... so.. juz kp doing.. we would b able 2b a real designer by then.. i jus wan 2 kp doin.. kp learnin... kp tryin.. 4 e small designer dream i have.. so u got to do it too.. make our grad show one of e best eva.. n we'l celebrate that day with each other okies... jiayou jiayou jiayou....
*kyLie* posted @ 15:42