met sm probs at wrk... not that i will gv up this fast, just alittle turn off by al e draggy talks n meetings tt doesnt seem 2 go anywhere... if efficiency is THAT impt, i guess, juz by giving simple instructions, delegating tasks, prob solved n deadline met.. rather than nag n nag, i dno if u r sick of ur naggin, i am... seriously, i am... e talks go nowhere, wont go anywhere.. cuz its beginnin 2 lose sense... ur design concept is SIMPLE? i nv noe simple is a concept... ur tv console 4 dis proj looks like e prev one i heard, nothin seems 2 b able 2 convince me further... instead doubts rises.. alot of question marks... u r not answerin my question whenever u twist them, not fulfilling my curiousity whenever u assume situations... i tot there's sm depth in u, if by lookin at e surface tells u abt anythin den i'll juz drop e respect... yah u were right when u say u gotta respect us 2 earn our respect 4 u, but hw far has that been proven?
i dun dislike u.. or anyone else... but i tot when i say i wan e line 2b red, n since u asked me 2 take care of e colours, i guess i shud b in charge of that, yet e so called designer who illustrates makes e final decision? i tot u can judge, i tot u have eyes, i tot u see beyond, i tot u gotten our strengths n u will work on that, yet it became a package with hidden lies... he can draw, so he wil come up w e ideas, yesh u had it nicely presented.. yet he started drafting 4 e on-going projects, instead, u said usin ruler 2 draw a 2pt is wad u wan n forgotten wad's he's best at... wrk w materials, e playing of materials, tink of new materials, new colours? yet e design remained e same.. i dun tink i can ever influence e illustrator or mayb self proclaimed designer abt what materials i wan, instead i was force 2 use pink lines instead of red simply cuz that someone else controls the mouse...
it wil b 2 harsh if i label al those u first said as lies, but wad were those if not lies? assumptions? tricks? boasts? i dno.. i'm gettin sick of u n e so-called design concepts... u n ur so-called simple..
a brand new week in e office, thrown a 5-rm flat by e boss b4 he left 4 his holidays 2 hongkong... i cant imagine tt while we were cracking our heads in e office 4 a small tv console, he might be in HK disneyland shaking Mickey's hands... doesnt feel gd isnt... but well, he's my boss.. n as someone who's not even a mth old in e office, keeping my grumbles 2 myself would seems like e only thing i shud do..
n guess wad, i drew like alot alot of perspectvs in mere few days, something that i never tot i can or will do... amazing huh... feel a small tiny sense of achievem.. at least, i did something...
gg take a warm bath.. n i need some rest... got sm wrk 2b done tm..
e 1st wk of wrk's over... n there's more 2 cm... sigh.. spent my precious wk end hanging ard w dear... lazing, sleeping... n stil desperately trying to lose more weight...
watched a movie.. Da Vinci code... its amazing... e story amazes me, e buildings too... everythin's amazing.. haha... gg buy e book.. do go watch if u haven... seriously...
gotta go slp, a whole new wk awaits...
P U R E C O N C E P T
"i never see failure as failure." as frail as my handwritting goes, this sentence caught my sight as it sits along side with the calender on my new desk, m i lucky or wad, my desk ends at the entrance of my boss office, ideally, he cant see me from his huge comfy armchair, yet i cant see him til the very minute he pounce on my desk, if he ever does..
the 2 hours long talk minus the 1/2 hour of waiting for the boss, nearly puts me 2 sleep. i know i'm not suppose 2 doze off, esp when its my 1st day, as a matter of fact, i did pull myself thru the whole meeting with my both eyes wide open, except for e occasional yawns n blinks..
its already 1/2 past 12 when i realised tt no one actually went for lunch, panics me a little.. i'm not that hungry but terribly thristhy, or mayb i was in e lack of some tar n nicotine, and yar, weilun's off to site... how i wished i could tag along as well, gg out no doubt beats stoning at the desk...
something's real sad, i dun hve a comp at the desk, not to mention the printer and scanner i used 2 get during my attachment.. this simply means i cant go online, evern when i am dead bored with nothing to do.. sigh...
one thing i like abt the office, is the radio tts tuned 2 933 al day long, well, at least some music... and i actually heard weilun humming along with songs on n off... calms us down alittle.. gets abit stressful in e morning when he was gg thru e job scope.. the quotatn stiff, budgeting stuff did puts me off alittle... mere worried tt i cant meet expectations... i guess i need much more research, more readings and concentration... back to caffeine... e tiring kopi-si days..
another part tt i love is tt i get to walk ard bare-footed... i never like to wear shoes... and e no shoes allowed office made me feel like home... kinda like e office, cozy and comfy... though lack of sm technology booze... but comfortable enough to keep me in there 4 hours... n nnot 2 4get e v helpful boss, gerald and francis... i really like e way they respond to all questions... esp when i like to go, why, why and whys....
not too bad a start, juz tt guess i have to wrk harder... catch up and hopefully, there's a smooth ladder ahead 4 me 2 climb... lots more things to learn.. wil update asap... =)
and juz a small tune 2 add, e dinner w e gang right aft wrk was nice... feels like sch days.. jiayou everyone... =)
I’m back frm e ghost town, urmm.. afamosa Malacca I mean.. desperately trying 2 get over the chills of e gokart accident, the scary fire eating show, the almost drowning wave fights in the pool, the thrills of the paintball shots and esp esp e magnificent firewrks.. e goods and e bads made this short vacation unforgettable.. I’m waiting 4 nana 2 load e photos, cant wait 2 go thru them.. there’s lots of them she says… i bet so, juz look at e way we respond 2 cameras, we r so numb to the snapping and flashes tt no on actually reali bothers abt her camera's presence til e v last day..
I’m dreading work although I will start only on Monday…I’m having the formidable MONDAY BLUES.. dis coming Monday seems more BLUE… much more… I need loosen up… cm’on its juz wrk.. yah.. its juz wrk, I hear something in my head repeating… repeating and repeating… seriously i'm praying real hard hoping tt everythin wil goes on well...
finally i'm gg start wrk, a decent job, earn some money, kp some savings, carve a career and start planning for a future...
wil be away 2 malacca wef 8thmay to 11thmay...
so anythin pls sms me, wil on my hp once a day 2 check, wil call back asap if urgent...
take care deardear, take gd care of babies 2 pls... and pls study hard 4 ur exams, its e final lap already... hugs hugs =)
wanli came 4 my grad show.. =) thnx gal
Sometimes i think i actually live in e clouds
I hv e most enchanting garden in my heart..
I'll rather stay in my own utopia..
I'm aint no big fan of reality..
I love to piss people off in the most delicate way.
I love to see that fuming expressions on their faces
I love the sight of challenges
I love the way I fight on to the end..
If you know what I mean..
I hate fears
I hate tears
I hate darkness
I hate noises
(& that includes all NAGGINGs)
I want a good rest.
I want a good reward after all hardwork.
(& I mean it, cuz I know I deserve it.)