happie 48th birthday
its CHRISTMAS.. n its e NEW YEAR soon.... n sadly i'm findin wrk a torture... its simply tiring... exhausting... sigh
HAPPY CHRISTMAS
EVERYONE
doin e 1st home owner's proj... n i wonder if these pp have brains... its f**king 930pm... i guess i hv e choice 2 ignore every sms frm u... n its CHRISTMAS mind u... even e governm declares it as a public holiday.. y cant you juz simple leave me alone after my wrk... Mayb u dun understand e meaning of PUBLIC HOLIDAY.... irritating... darn irritating...
some pp u trust.. trust in awhile.. a long while... yet weirdly somehow u just lost tt trust... somewhere...
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16th dec - shooping w xueli
23rd dec - dinner w e grp
24th dec - christmas eve
25th dec - christmas day
26th dec - dad birthday dinner...
27th dec - i'm applying leave...
wad a december... wrk will stil b bz no doubt... but seriously who can resist a festive season...
its almost christmas.. i dun celebrate christmas... nv eva once believed in santa claus... mayb cuz i grew up in a tropical country... one tt nv eva seen snow...
i saw snow once... nah it wasnt a nice enuf past tt anyone mt wan 2 kp... nt tt i dun like e majestic snow... its juz e memories tt surrounded it.. somethin i had tried hard enuf 2 erase... n well, i did forgotten most glasgow... most of london & most of Paris... not even disney euro.. nothin much left... no idea if tts a gd thing seriously... somehow it feels like i went UK in my dreams... the trip gradually became somethin vague, somethin so unreal... like it nv happen b4..
mayb i might be afraid of tt place 4eva.. i hv no plans 2 go back to either of those cities... not tt i reject gg there... juz tt i wun plan a trip there unless its necessary... mayb some lessons of life juz wun go away non matter hw long it takes.. time cant possibly erase al pain... mayb one day it will, 4yrs doesnt seem enuf...
gettin emotional n al... juz sm nonsense... i'm gd.. no worries... i'm gd now... n yar, i gotta tk driving real soon... i juz gotta do it... n m desperately tryin 2 lose sm weight...
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went hm early 2 celebrate my one n oni bro's bday... n i did enjoyed myself even though its juz a small celebratn.. nv knew jus simply sittin ard w everyone at home feels so comfy.. at least for a few hours of e day, i'd totally forgotten abt wrk... kat's sms didnt stressed me out as bad as how it used to... mum's cookin improved... nicer food.. n literally tastier.... =)
khailoong's leavin the job.. dun like tt idea, cuz he is one of those whom i really treasured in e office.. someone who nv hesitate to help me out w all my questions be it big or small... someone who has been guiding me w great patience eversince e 1st day he came in... one with no airs.. one who isnt a politics player... yet he sort of became the victim... kinda saddenin.. mayb he is juz too kind 2 hurt anyone... juz cant bear 2 see him leave...
been readin again, THE RULES OF LIFE.. of which i particularly love Rule number : 24 - Leave a little space for yourself each day. totally love this rule, n i seriously agree w every bit of it... extracted " this is a little space for you, a breather, a time to sit still , and do absolutely nothin.."
i'm awiz sittin down at somewhr starin into the blank air, n my mum would juz go like "stop day dreaming, it doesnt bring u anywhr..." but she dun understan, if i dun dream at all, i wont b wad i m today... its al those small ting little breaks i take in betwn to survive this far in life...
u noe its funny that i'm beginnin 2 wrk for rests than for the pay... i yearn for a gd slp as a reward, a gd deep slp with no irritating phonecalls n smses... an off day where i dun hv 2 sit in front of the comp at home to clear drawings after drawings... a wk end whr i can sit by the beach n worry abt nothing... doesnt tt sounds more attractive than some monetary reward u get at the end of the month that lasts you less tha half...?
dear's complainin tt his job is not challenging at all.. n mine seemed to challenging... challenging's a nicer way of saying its stressful... i'm beginnin 2 wonder if this the kinda life i wan lead forever... i even tot of going flying... a dream that u abandoned.. BUT if i cant just simply give up and turn away, i dun wan 2b a loser... i cant be a loser...
i wan to go taipei.. mayb next april or hopefully feb, right after the Chinese New Year seems perfect.. actually i dun mind one or two weeks of leave.. i dun mind doin nothin too... u noe, i have this very unglam dream recently that i never tot i ever will dream of... i was thinking, merely thinking.. i wan b a housewife.. do some household chores, take care of my husband whoeva he may b, even simple sendin of kids to & fro sch sounds gd too.. awww... bliss....
the whole entry dun linked... 1st paragraph to the 2nd then the 3rd... n so on... nothin links... too much things going thru my head.. its going b another bz day tm.. client's meetin somemore... i need 2 pump in more enthusiasium.. more energy... oh yar n i needa go sign up for my driving.... asap...