last week was a torment for everyone i guess.. not that we very much hated that torment but i'm sure we dun like wad we have seen that few days... its only then i realise how immature i am.. or maybe i'm just too emotional n will always be... I was bursting into tears when i see popo w al e tubes n machines, wadeva u call it, ard her... still, i gotta swallow e tears in front of her... its like altho' her condition was bad then, yet we cant tell her it is.. i didnt expect to c her in e icu when i reach the hospital, i tot it was minor... wad surprises me was al e red, teary eyes i saw when i met my aunts n sisters... it hurts all of us to see her in that stage.. n its like a sudden wake-up to reality 4 me.. i'm always busy n all.. running ard... she makes me realise how fragile a life can be... that anything else in the world dun matter at all anymore... I know life goes on, I know mins n secs still ticked away... but its like i wished the time will just stop somehow yet hoping that time will pass faster that she will get well..

she went out of icu during the wkend.. sigh of relief for everyone n herself as well i guess.. finally she started eating some porridge... cools everyone down alittle... you know the mere importance of family, kinship and all? it matters so much when all of us were gg thru e hardships together, i hope popo felt it too... n with that, i hope the will to get better is in her, knowing that we are all around her anytime everytime she needs us..

I resigned last friday.. its like frustrated with people who dun seem to care at all? or rather frustrated with myself that i have tried so hard 2 gain some recongnition that doesnt seems to go anywhere? had a talk with Kat today.. she said she had so much hopes in me.. the part where she talks abt Roy telling her that its worth all the effort training me.. that its worth eveyrone else's effort n time.. does really shaken my resignation alittle.. but well, there's much more important things in life than dealing with her tantrums n temper.. if u know wad i mean.. i believe everyone who went through it b4 understands.. n i know that Val knows what i m driving at the best now...

Sincerely, i thank the company for making me what i am today.. n thank Roy for all the opportunities, seriously i was given chances to do things which i never tot i will ever have, given my results n portfolio in sch... n still, lotsa thanks to Kat who had put in all her efforts to train me both at wrk n as well as building my character.. leaving the company doesnt mean that i will not work hard anymore.. i will n with wad i had from u guys these 1 1/2yrs, i tink i will do even better in the future.. I know i will, and in any case i make it in the future, i wan the 2 of u to be real proud of me..

it was tons of thoughts n feelings running thru me over the past week.. given a serious thought abt resigning.. n all e prayers for dearest popo... a job will just be a job... but the family n close friends ard u can never ever be replaced... n like wad i had told Roy, what i saw my grandma went through makes me realise that wad i had achieved in work through the past yr seems rather worthless.. I m confident of myself, so confident that i know i can achieve wadever i wan cuz i know i am determine to give my best.. but in times like these, when non matter how determine u are, no one knows the outcome... somethings u can fight for.. yet the sad truth is that some other things r just not within our own control..

I pray for the courage to let go of things that dun belong, and to cherish those that are important n dear to me..

*kyLie* posted @ 05:06

hahaha.. since when.... whaha...

*kyLie* posted @ 16:30

*kyLie* posted @ 16:19

2007/12/05

i noe everythin will be fine..

i'm sure u can pull thru this.. no doubt...

jiayou...

we're al praying very hard 4 dis... praying very hard 4 u..

never once in my life, death came so close...

i noe it is not permanent, it'll b over...

i noe i got to be strong.. much stronger than this...

and i will...

*kyLie* posted @ 00:28

2007/12/03

din turn up 4 wrk again, my gastrics gettin bad.. n 2 make things worst... grandma is admitted again... urghh... i hate 3rd Dec... lousy day..

*kyLie* posted @ 17:23

2007/12/02

I went shopping with xue yesterday, went to buy accessories for her prom night... i was tired la.. cuz was wrkin in e morning.. but nonetheless, i dun mind the time spent on my family... although its hard 2 divide my time equally for family, friends n wrk.. but... i'm tryin my very best 2 make all of them feel balance..

Elni asked me 2 MOS on sat.. i was kinda hesistant though i dun mind clubbing again.. then again, i dun even have enough time for my close friends n family.. and, I need time for MYSELF too... so well.. sometimes collegues will only be collegues...

I'm gg rush some drwgs, and then its time for Nana.. heh.. better enjoy myself to the max b4 the busy week starts again.. and, thank goodness.. I'm gg to BKK soon... heeez.. cant wait... I love the yr end holidays... =)

*kyLie* posted @ 12:52