睡不着的晚上。。 我脑里到底在想些什么。。 胡思乱想了一个晚上。。
突然好想旅行。。 离开一下会比较爱他吧。。 我知道我是幸福的。。
但心里似乎有些什么。。 唉。。 都已是过去的事了。。
好多年了，怎么才能放得下呢。。
又过了一年，希望你一切安好。。
(这不是我祈祷过的吗。。)
。。。。
想到你的时间是最难过的。。
不要误会，我只是偶尔会想到。。
我并没不爱他，毕竟现在他是我的全部。。
我很快乐，真的快乐。。
只是，偶尔还是会想到你。。 和那些我曾经很努力要忘记的回忆。。
New year Resolution... (gotta get this ready b4 e 2009....)
1. start joint a/c w bao.. so we can start planning 4 our home... our marriage (which he says it shud happen in 2010)... 4 our future in all...
2. get my BLARDY driving license... (u guys can officially kill me if i dont get it by e end of 2009... yesh.. literally KILLL MEEEE....) i'm dying to get it...
3. complete ALL my DENTAL apptm.. & i mean ALL.. i have one more wisdom to be "surgeried" on.. i have a long broken front tooth to settle... n maybe even some braces... my set of teeth r like badly grown la...
4. & i am so gng to work hard & i mean REAL hard to land myself in a BETTER job.. with better salary.. better benefits... better welfare.. better environment... better prospects.. BETTER EVERYTHING... (even better if its a job that allows/needs me to travel...)
5. i want to visit more countries... Hong Kong is confirmed tix booked for Feb'09... i wanna go shanghai or Beijing tooo... n everywhere that my feet & wallet can bring me...
6. i wish and will pray hard for GOOD health for everyone around me.. esp my grandparents... they worth more than anything to me... my parents tooo... n my youngest sis who havent been eating well for a yr?.. n my 2nd sis who will b having her baby mid'09.. i'm gg b a auntie soon... n i cant wait... woohoo... =)
7. Last but not least... I want to quit smoking... but i'm giving myself till 2010.. so i have 2 more yrs 2 go... but of cuz, e earlier e better... s'pore governm will suffocate all smokers soon.. so i gotta b a step faster than them...
8. N yar.. i gotta work hard in protecting myself against all aging signs.. (i'm esp not allowing age to show on my face..) i'm seriously not getting younger anymore... the BIG 30s will b here in a few yrs time..
before all that... i shall start enjoying the yr end hols.. and not forgetting that its a SHORT week ahead...
Merry Christmas guys... & Happy New Year... *winkz*
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had a dinner gathering w mdm wong guys... nice & cosy dinner.. its was funny how i landed everyone in a cable car ride that brought cold sweats.. haha.. but.. it was fun la... besides the closer sx n best fren, e other 2 were pp i almost nv meet up w 4 e past few yrs... some grown.. some changed... some shrinked.. some stayed e same.. but we all shared a common memory.. which i believed we'd love to kp... too bad i didnt hv my camera w me.. but well... it was time well-spent.. thanks guys 4 e fun.. will c u guys soon... =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AuPSZ9Hxbzc
Frente! - Let The Sun Shine In
Mommy told me something
A little kid should know
It's all about the devil
And I learned to hate him so
She said he causes trouble when you let him in your room
He'll never ever leave you if your heart is filled with gloom
Chorus:
So let the sun shine in
Face it with a grin
Smilers never lose
And Frowners never win
So let the sun shine in
Face it with a grin
Open up your heart and let the sun shine in
When you are unhappy
The devil wears a grin
But oh he starts to run in
When the light comes prowling in
I know he'll be unhappy
Cause I'll never wear a frown
Maybe if we keep on smiling
He'll get tired of hanging 'round
If I forget to say my prayers
The devil jumps with glee
But he feels so awful awful
When he sees me on my knees
So if you feel of trouble
And you never seem to move
Just open up your heart and let the sun shine in
Suuuuun Shiiiiiine iiiiiin
Suuuuun Shiiiiiine iiiiiin
Mommy told me someting
A little kid should know
It's all about the devil
And i learned to hate him so
If I forget to say my prayers
The devil jumps with glee
But he feels so awful awful
When he sees me on my knees
So if you feel of trouble
And you never seem to move
Just open up your heart and let the sun shine in
once again...
yes.. once again...
thanks alot for making me feel helpless and pathetic.. juz like i belong no where... thanks... lesson well learnt...
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that aside...
i somehow learn how cheap tears are... i mean tears dun worth a single cent.. people upsets u... force u down... juz to see that few drops of tears frm your eyes... how worthy can that ever be...
i miraclously stop shedding tears... over the most painful events... over the most piercing words... i hope i'm not escaping by swallowing them. i hope by ignoring unnecessary events or people, i will soon forget the hurt.. let things go...
there's a tiny pinch of hatred.. i wont deny... but i want to learn how to let it go... ya.. let go of it all..
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... although i had my fair share of the colder heart at e earlier part of the day....