I started volunteering recently. :)
Twice this week, and I'm so glad that I took that first step. And, am so thankful for everyone, anyone, everything, anything that gave me this opportunity to be part of this.
Met other volunteers, who asked why I decide to come forward and volunteer. I don't know what is the answer they have, and what are the reasons that drove them there, and I have no idea what they would expect me to say, but I don't have a reason. Of course, I just laughed and said, I always wanted to do something to help, but couldn't afford the time.
But, seriously, I do not have a reason. There's this weird force that just keep pushing me, closer and closer to volunteering.. It became a case whereby I don't see it as something that I want to do, it actually became something that I need to do.. and I feel that need getting stronger and stronger by the days..
What do you have that makes you want to give? I do not have as much as you all do, I am not rich, I am not talented, I do not have super high IQ, I am not some scholar, I do not drive sports car, I do not even own a luxury item.. But, the people who needs assistance do not need any of that anyway, they just need one ordinary soul who has the courage to take a small step just to reach out to them..
I have things that money cannot buy and books cannot bring. I merely have the heart to give, whatever I have.
This is only the beginning and I crave for more.
I guess this is the best present I have given myself for my BIG 30 :)
*kyLie* posted @ 15:53
2012/05/16
I'm diagnosed w Rheumatoid arthritis.. in medical explanation, its a long-term disease that leads to inflammation of the joints and surrounding tissues and can also affect other organs. It is an autoimmune disease, which means the body's immune system mistakenly attacks healthy tissue. In my own terms, its just uncomfortable joint pains.. to my mum, its called 风湿.. whatever it is, the cause is not known.. thats what the doctor says at least, no one knows why i will get this and why at this age..
I was reluctant to go on medication, as far as I have read and felt these two days, the medication is making me very uncomfortable. I get the giddy spells all the time.. n had a handful of nauseous moments.. n this puts me in bed most of the time.. thats where I feel best.. doc says such side effects are common and temporary for most people, so I guess it should be gone in a couple more days..? I hope..
The joint pains dont hurt as much as it used to anymore.. or maybe like what the doctor said, I should have gotten used to it by now. the medication dont hurt too, but the list of winding side effects r just too scary, I have to go for eye scan every half a year from now on, out of the 4 pills I have to pop, 2 of them apparently has the potential to cause retinopathy, eye infections or other vision problems, which means, one day I will have to stop wearing contact lenses.. Other side effects includes, diarrhea, loss of appetite, hair loss, susceptibility to infection and poor healing of
injuries or wounds, menstrual irregularities and complete absence of monthly period, "thinning" of the bones and the list goes on.. and on.. which is kinda frightening..
The thought that I might have to live with this for the whole of my life and the fact that it will not get better, the medication is introduce merely to control the condition.. this hurts.. that simply means, there's nothing much I can do to reverse this condition, or rather, this condition is not reversible at all..
*kyLie* posted @ 12:20
2012/05/07
謝謝一路上經歷的傷害 讓我整個人強大了起來
加速到達不了的地方 停下來看風景或到處逛一逛
謝謝生命中那些個精彩 讓我懂得知足也看得開
別再去糾結過往悲哀 快駕著時間的車尋找愛
劉力揚 - 旅途
*kyLie* posted @ 23:33